In the second part of her interview with NBC News‘ Savannah Guthrie, Amber Heard admitted her fear of being sued again by her ex-husband Johnny Depp and that she still loves him.
The actress said “absolutely” when Gutherie asked her if, after everything, as she said in court during their defamation trial, she “still has love” for Depp.
“Absolutely. I love him. I loved him with all my heart,” Heard told Guthrie. “I have no bad feelings or ill will toward him at all. I love him. I know that might be hard to understand or it might be really easy to understand if you’ve just ever loved anyone. I loved him with all my heart and I tried the best I could to make a deeply broken relationship work and I couldn’t.”
As we earlier reported about the first part of the interview, Heard said of the verdict, “You cannot tell me that you think that this has been fair. Even somebody who is sure that I am deserving of all this hate and betrayal — even if you think that I’m lying, you still couldn’t look me in the eye and tell me that you think on social media there’s been a fair representation.”
Heard reflected more on the public perception about her in the second installment of her interview after Gutherie asked the Aquaman actress about a text in which Depp promised “total global humiliation” for her.
“I’m not a good victim, I get it,” she said. “I’m not a likable victim, I’m not a perfect victim. But when I testified I asked the jury to see me and hear his own words which is a promise to do this.”
Heard told Guthrie she “took for granted what I assumed was my right to speak” and now is nervous to speak out. “I’m scared that no matter what I do, no matter what I say or how I say it, every step that I take will present another opportunity for this sort of silencing,” Heard said in response to Guthrie asking if she had concerns that Depp could sue her again in the future. “Which is what I guess a defamation lawsuit is meant to do — to take your voice.”
As for what’s next for the actress, she said she can now focus on being a full-time mother to her one-year-old daughter.
The second part of Heard’s NBC News interview airs this Friday at 8 p.m. EST on Dateline.