Noah Cyrus on stage at The Crystal Campaign Collection Launch at Urban Outfitters Space 15Twenty on October 19, 2019 in Los Angeles, California.

Noah Cyrus just revealed her secret battle with Xanax addiction in a new feature for Rolling Stone.

The 22-year-old singer opened up about her struggle for the first time, adding that she’s been in recovery since 2020. Cyrus shared she got hooked on the anxiety medication when she was 18, trying to fit in with her boyfriend at the time. The youngest Cyrus sister told the publication that “once I felt that it was possible to silence things out for a second and numb your pain, it was over.”

“I was surrounded by people who were easily able to get it by buying it from people,” she explained, adding that her friends at the time “kind of cosigned” her drug use. “It just kind of becomes this dark pit, bottomless pit,” she continued, telling the mag that she’d sleep until 8 p.m., lost track of days and began to lose her memory when she hit her low in 2020.

There are two moments Noah recalled when she hit her lowest and “most alarming.” First, she found herself “completely nodding off and falling asleep” during an interview promoting her EP The End of Everything in May of that year. She said she was “unable to keep my head up or keep my eyes open, because I was so far gone,” she recalled; the interview never aired.

The other low point that gave her a bitter wakeup call was her grandmother Loretta’s death in August that same year, something that still she felt deeply guilty about. “I was there physically, but emotionally, I was not there. I couldn’t be,” she said, adding that she cut herself off from her family a bit then as well. “That was my big eye-opener: I was sitting alone, and I was scared, and I realized that all the people that I love and all the people that I need, I was the one pushing them away.”

She eventually sought help and went into recovery, saying she “was being helped by everybody that I needed help from, and it took some time to get on my own two feet.” She also poured her private battle into her upcoming album, The Hardest Part, out July 15. However, she says that The Hardest Part isn’t just Cyrus processing her journey with addiction. It’s also reconciling many of the relationships around her.

“I’m not trying to be, like, any spokesperson for recovery or anything like that,” said Cyrus now. “I, myself, am just going through it and figuring it out.”

Cyrus just released her new single, “Ready to Go,” ahead of her September 16 album drop.